Today my mind is on friends, family and loved ones. With the sad and completely unnecessary death of a friend over the weekend I have been pondering a lot about several issues. The obvious is of course keeping those you love close, making sure you connect and just being thankful for all the people in your life. I'm a crappy friend when it comes to keeping in touch regularly but I often think of those people who have touched my life and I know I should be working harder at staying in touch. Secondly, I've been wondering if it is a cultural/generational thing that could possibly have someone believe at the age of 19 that since life is awesome right now it should be ended so you never experience when it might get worse. Maybe it is just that one person. I can't wrap my head around it. I've always believed that life is to be lived. Don't get me wrong I've had some very low moments when suicide seemed like the only option but something inside me always spoke up at just the right time telling me that doing so was letting the bad things win. I can't imagine waking up one morning and thinking life is great so lets stop now.
Of course a focus on death over the weekend has driven home what I've known for a while in that I need to live my life more. Now that school is done and I have spare time I should be doing more, not necessarily out and about (I'm an introvert) but even just doing those things I love, being crafty, reading, writing, exploring nature etc. Ironically this weekend hubby had actually arranged Friday and Saturday off so that we could do just that when we got the news Friday early afternoon all those plans went out the window.