Thursday, March 21, 2013

Thankful Thursday

This week I am thankful for...

  1. Rain - it is needed and I do so love a gloomy rainy day every now and then.
  2. My Chiropractor and Massage Therapist - between the 2 they are preventing me from being in a lot of pain while I do my thesis.
  3. Amazon - the ability to get a hold of books with 2 day delivery and second hand books all in one place is immensely helpful for the thesis.
  4. Sleep - I'm trying to get a little more of that, although the sleep, work, school balance is still a work in progress.
  5. A stress free hubby - he's much nicer to be around.  Although I'm very jealous he is done with his Masters now.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Ostara 2013

Well it is a gloomy rainy spring equinox today and I love it.  Don't get me wrong, I love sunshine I even love spring (except for the whole allergy thing) but I also love a dark rainy day when the earth is a little quieter, and you have time to pause.  Everyone seems to move a little slower on those days, be a little quieter, it is a chance for us and for the earth to just breathe, take in nourishment and prepare for the blossoming ahead.  We need the rain too, which doesn't hurt :)  I'll admit that I prefer studying on days like today as well because I don't have to look outside and see the sunshine and the world coming to life again and feel annoyed that I can't get out there and enjoy it.

I'm having issues connecting with Ostara this year, heck, I'm having issues connecting to much of anything right now.  This is the downside to doing one's thesis - your mindset gets so involved in the study and the stress that you tend to lose track of the world around you.  I couldn't even tell you what phase the moon was in right now without taking a look online, I barely note the passing of time either. What sucks the most about this is my body, my soul, my very being is tugging at me, demanding quite vocally that now is the time to cast off and dive deep, to explore and nurture, to embrace the dark and find my own light and yet I'm having to put it off.  Just a little longer, just until school is done - and I know, deep down do I know, that something is waiting for me, she isn't happy about waiting, and she's going to make me pay for putting her on the back burner.  I'm going to be worked hard, no gentle exploration, no easy ride.  But what can I do.  So I do what I can, the little things to keep me connected, and I acknowledge her presence in the peripheral, and I will surrender myself to her lessons - as soon as I get my thesis done, and I hope she will be patient enough with me until then.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Spirit Doll Update

A while ago on a Witchy Wednesday posting I put information out there about the creation of spirit dolls.  Well last weekend I got together with some lovely 'sisters' and we each made a spirit doll.  It was a wonderful experience and each doll was truly unique and reflective of what we wanted to honor and manifest.

Here is my dark goddess/star goddess doll.

Musing Monday

Need this reminder at the moment, not only for my spiritual life but also for my life in general.  I have to remember that the craft is a practice and that practice is therefore required, and it wont always be perfect.  I have to remind myself that no matter how insanely busy I am I always feel better if I take the time out to connect to my spiritual side.  If I can just begin, take the first step towards a spiritual act each day it will get easier.  

I also have to remember this with my thesis - I am feeling so overwhelmed by it all, lost and unsure exactly how to start and where to begin and I know that once I get going it will all become clear but that first step is always so fard to take.