Friday, March 15, 2013

Free Friday

Just thinking...

If you ever wondered whether magic and its practice is something that is real, that has a history, then I strongly suggest really taking some time to dig deep and research magic throughout history - you'll quickly find a world of answers and questions that will confirm within you the understanding that 'magical practices' must be true because they have been a part of society and culture for as long as we have recorded history.

One of the things I'm loving about doing my thesis is all the connections I'm seeing between magic in the ancient world and magic now.  That is to say, I can see where those who re-introduced/created the ideas of witchcraft that we hold in modern westernized society today got their ideas from.  Now that isn't to say that there is no truth to some of the information, I'm just critical/analytical enough to recognize that Wicca is a modern creation and as such while it draws on the ancient past, it isn't the magic of the ancient past.

What I do see is key ideas, elements and theories that have come through to us today.  It is funny to read up on some amazing new age idea that everyone is touting about and know that really the theory has been around for almost 2 thousand years more or less.  The other key thing you begin to notice is that the idea of 'magic' permeates all societies, that it is a key element in our understanding of the universe and given that most societies have similar ideas even when there was little to no contact indicates that there has to be some greater connection out there than people are willing to acknowledge.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Thankful Thursday

This week I am thankful for...

  1. The warm spring weather - although not so much the accompanying allergies.
  2. Catching up with friends I haven't seen in a long time.
  3. Being another week closer to having my degree done.
  4. Coffee - some days it is all that keeps me going.
  5. An appointment to get crafty with wonderful friends on Saturday - awesome way to take the mind off the thesis for a while.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

When is a god the right god?

When is a god the right god?

I have addressed this topic before, and I'm also fairly certain that I've stated it is a constantly evolving process for me.  Well the ideas are running around in my head again, questions seem to outweigh the answers as they usually do.  Not sure if I'm fighting knowledge out of fear or just really don't know.

I've felt a pull towards the Morrigan even since I went to PCon.  Okay, that is actually a lie, I've felt a pull towards her for a very long time but I've usually brushed it off.  You see I've had this thing about  feeling drawn to any of the 'mainstream' gods as I think of them.  Those deities that everyone, especially the new, claim as their patrons.  Why do I push against it?  I think it is because I feel that most of those who I've encounted that claim to connect to these deities are really only superficially claiming an association, they think its cool or that because they're a witch they must revere Hecate or things along those lines and I refuse to be a part of it.  Last year I had the pleasure of reading about peoples experiences through the Pagan Blog Project with some of these more 'mainstream' gods that began to open my eyes to the other side of it (which, I knew was there but hadn't experienced yet), those who truly took their connection as a deep and meaningful thing that shaped their lives and their practice.  I think this opened me up more to listening to these calls more.

So great, step one conquered.  Now I'm at stumbling block 2, my connection specifically with the Morrigan. I had a truly amazing experience at PCon at the Morrigan Devotional, it was powerful and I experienced the most vivid visions throughout.  I haven't been able to get her out of my mind since.  But now I'm questioning myself - am I feeling this renewed connection with her because I'm open to it now, or am I transferring my amazing experience onto this deity and trying to force a connection that isn't there?  In case you haven't noticed I spend a great deal of time doubting my thoughts until I can convince myself of their basis.  It is a flaw that I need to work on, healthy questioning is fine, constant lack of faith in ones intuition is not.

I have definitely been feeling the push towards the darker goddesses lately.  It is a sign of my current journey.   So the Morrigan to me fits in with this pattern.  I guess the only way to truly know is to spend some time reaching out.  So this week that is what I aim to do.  To meditate and reach out and see if what I'm feeling is truth or wishful thinking.  We'll see what happens.

Monday, March 11, 2013

Musing Monday

Good things come to those who...manifest.

This idea came to me as most ideas do when I was just on the cusp of falling asleep after a long day when it was already later than I should have been in bed and I was desperate for sleep.

I was thinking of the saying 'good things come to those who wait' and realized that I really do not like it.  It seems to imply a sense of passivity, that if one just waits things will come to them.  When really we have to work for it, we have to take steps forward.  We can envision what we want as much as we want but if we sit on our butt and do nothing that is exactly what will happen, nothing.

I think the trigger for this came from some comments about how 'lucky' hubby and I have been with how things have worked out for us etc in this shitty economy.  I don't believe in luck, you make your own path, and we have worked out butts off and worked jobs we hate to get and keep what we have.  Would we both rather be doing something else for employment - yes, but the reality of the situation is you take what you can get and if my goal is to manifest and keep a job that pays the bills and allows me to enjoy life and that job isn't my ideal right now, well I still have what I need and I have to work with it until I can get something better when the economy turns around.  Because guess what, reality plays a part too.  You can dream all you want about your ideal job that also pays you well and has great benefits but you have to acknowledge that if you're living in a country with a messed up economy you probably aren't going to get it, or at the very least you shouldn't be turning down good offers because they aren't perfect and then complaining because you can't get work.

Ok, this is taking a sideways track into a rant so I'm stopping here.